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This is the nth time I felt this way and I still don't know how to handle this. I have no problems really. I just feel sad.
No one seems to be nice enough to talk to me or even care if I'm ok. I don't usually write blogs but this pushed me hoping
someone could extend some help.
For those who don't know me personally, I'm an average looking guy who commits his whole self to his family, studies and
work. I don't usually go out at night for gimmicks and I'm a home buddy-lately. I have a lot of friends. I'm a people person
and it seems that I enjoy pleasing other people. I have undergone a long moving-on solitude since my break-up with my girlfriend
(of almost 4 years and the longest I ever had) last year. I never went to dates and never shown interest with anyone since
then. Up to now, I'm still not looking forward to see someone or to be in love again. I don't even have crushes. I just want
somebody to talk to, not to fall in love with.
My heart seems to be over-used.
I don't understand why girls give such malice if guys try to be nice to them. I've got a friend who happens to be a girl.
She tried to evade me, and reason out that she's just avoiding intrigues. Another friend even denied that she talked to me.
I just don't understand. Is there something wrong with me? I'm just trying to be nice.
For those who know me personally, I bet you'd ask me, why we broke up. Honestly I don't know. But whatever the reason
is, I'm sure I didn't decide in just one day. It took months, trying to patch things. And of course there are other factors.
And the problem is with me. That's for sure.
I don't usually disclose my feelings with anyone-the masochist way. I keep it. I keep it probably because there's no one
to share with. I have helped more than a hundred people when they feel this way. Now, I'm feeling helpless, and clueless on
what to do. Why can't I make myself feel lighter? I begged for attention from so many people but none of them responded. Am
I just approaching the wrong persons? Are they busy? Don't they like me? Am I boring? Or they just don't want to help me.
I wish there's someone who could hear my thoughts and my pains, well aside from God, Who has always been my inspiration.
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