Mood:
crushed outWhat a terrible day! Woke up late, sakit ng katawan ko kasi mali pwesto ko sa kama, walang sasakyan, dami tao, sobrang traffic muntik na ko ma-late at higit sa lahat pinag-lilihiman ako ng girlfriend ko ang aga-aga pa. I know we have to keep some things to ourselves pero this matter concerns me. I feel so helpless, distrusted and betrayed all at the same time. I feel so hurt, enough to make me cry. Ang aga pa pero I feel so low. Parang ang baba ng energy ko, wala kong gana magwork. Di ko alam kung dahil ba sa dami, natatamad ako o dahil ba malungkot lang ako. I’m trying to reach out..but she’s turning away from me. What’s the point of all of this shit? I feel the weakest now…I feel like falling apart. Tomorrow is our Christmas Party, and that’s a big thing for me because I’m the person-in-charge of that. Pero I can’t feel the spirit of Christmas. I can’t feel the excitement. Bahala na, if I fail tomorrow probably wala na kong work after tomorrow night. Gusto ko ng umuwi. Payroll pa, papatayin ako ng boss ko pag di naka-sweldo mga tao ngayong weekend. Wala pa kong nasisimulan. Bakit ba nagsasabay-sabay pa? I needed her most now pero I won’t beg for her. She doesn’t trust me nga eh so what’s the point di ba? Looks like I’ll be spending my birthday and my 2007 Christmas alone.
