Failure
Mood:
sad
We had our Christmas Party last Friday and it was so disappointing. Everything was a total disaster. It started off with the late party attendees. Traffic daw? E alam naman nilang they need to leave the office at 1pm because its Friday and it’s payday kaya sobrang traffic. But still, wala pa din eh. Second, the band we hired was late. The employees are already eating when they arrived. Third, the sales people were taking pictures while the President is having his speech. Fourth, kulang ang food! Fifth, while my boss is giving the closing remarks, people were leaving. What a gesture di ba? Nakakatamad mag-ayos ng party na hindi ka na nga na-appreciate, di ka pa na-respeto. Tapos pagod ka na, gutom ka pa, gabi ka na umuwi, feel na feel mo pa na failure yung buong party. My boss is so down about it. Ako din at yung iba pang HR team. There’s so much to do pero nakakatamad eh. Nakakabadtrip lalo na pag nakikita ko yung mga bastos na tao na palakad-lakad dito sa office. They’re kinda abusing the company. Now…I’m looking for a new job…hopefully makahanap na ko…
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 4:26 PM WST
Is It Over?
Mood:
accident prone
Topic: wala lang
Is it over, are you really over her
Is it over, or will you take her back again
If it's over you can let her memory in
Come on over, we'll let our love begin.
You say you can't count the times that she's hurt you
And she's hurt you for the last time
Now you say I'm the one that you're needing
But is the need in your heart or just in your mind.
Is it over, are you really over her
Is it over, or will you take her back again
If it's over you can let her memory in
Come on over, we'll let our love begin.
You know that I'm yours for the asking
If you're really asking, for true love
Words can't express how I want you
Oh, how I want to believe you're giving her up.
But is it over are you really over her
Is it over or will you take her back again
If it's over you can let her memory in
Come on over we'll let our love begin.
Is it over, come on over let our love begin.
Is it over...
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 4:09 PM WST
Updated: Tuesday, 18 December 2007 10:07 AM WST
premonition
Mood:
crushed out
Topic: life kong weird
What a terrible day! Woke up late, sakit ng katawan ko kasi mali pwesto ko sa kama, walang sasakyan, dami tao, sobrang traffic muntik na ko ma-late at higit sa lahat pinag-lilihiman ako ng girlfriend ko ang aga-aga pa. I know we have to keep some things to ourselves pero this matter concerns me. I feel so helpless, distrusted and betrayed all at the same time. I feel so hurt, enough to make me cry. Ang aga pa pero I feel so low. Parang ang baba ng energy ko, wala kong gana magwork. Di ko alam kung dahil ba sa dami, natatamad ako o dahil ba malungkot lang ako. I’m trying to reach out..but she’s turning away from me. What’s the point of all of this shit? I feel the weakest now…I feel like falling apart. Tomorrow is our Christmas Party, and that’s a big thing for me because I’m the person-in-charge of that. Pero I can’t feel the spirit of Christmas. I can’t feel the excitement. Bahala na, if I fail tomorrow probably wala na kong work after tomorrow night. Gusto ko ng umuwi. Payroll pa, papatayin ako ng boss ko pag di naka-sweldo mga tao ngayong weekend. Wala pa kong nasisimulan. Bakit ba nagsasabay-sabay pa? I needed her most now pero I won’t beg for her. She doesn’t trust me nga eh so what’s the point di ba? Looks like I’ll be spending my birthday and my 2007 Christmas alone.
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 10:12 PM WST
Updated: Thursday, 13 December 2007 9:13 AM WST
premonition
Mood:
crushed out
What a terrible day! Woke up late, sakit ng katawan ko kasi mali pwesto ko sa kama, walang sasakyan, dami tao, sobrang traffic muntik na ko ma-late at higit sa lahat pinag-lilihiman ako ng girlfriend ko ang aga-aga pa. I know we have to keep some things to ourselves pero this matter concerns me. I feel so helpless, distrusted and betrayed all at the same time. I feel so hurt, enough to make me cry. Ang aga pa pero I feel so low. Parang ang baba ng energy ko, wala kong gana magwork. Di ko alam kung dahil ba sa dami, natatamad ako o dahil ba malungkot lang ako. I’m trying to reach out..but she’s turning away from me. What’s the point of all of this shit? I feel the weakest now…I feel like falling apart. Tomorrow is our Christmas Party, and that’s a big thing for me because I’m the person-in-charge of that. Pero I can’t feel the spirit of Christmas. I can’t feel the excitement. Bahala na, if I fail tomorrow probably wala na kong work after tomorrow night. Gusto ko ng umuwi. Payroll pa, papatayin ako ng boss ko pag di naka-sweldo mga tao ngayong weekend. Wala pa kong nasisimulan. Bakit ba nagsasabay-sabay pa? I needed her most now pero I won’t beg for her. She doesn’t trust me nga eh so what’s the point di ba? Looks like I’ll be spending my birthday and my 2007 Christmas alone.
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 9:43 AM WST
thoughts
Mood:
hungry
Topic: wala lang
After a long time, heto na nanaman ako at magpo-post nanaman…this is the most busy week I ever had in my entire year 2007. Plus, my birthday is coming up. I’m turning 23. I’m sooo tired and sooo sleepy and sooo hungry. I bought a planner a while ago for my kris kringle baby. I also bought chocolates for my other kris kringle. Hmmm I still don’t have a costume for this Friday. I’m making a script. Yup and it’s really a script. My hosts are first-timers and they really need to be spoonfed for this. Damn I’m having a headache…
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 2:55 PM WST
angel's post 2 years ago (this is a background to my next post hehe)
Mood:
cheeky
Topic: Chismis
fyi, to all, i have been alone for almost two years. No boyfriend at all. It has been a roller coaster of emotions. Feeling all the insecurities that I have and covering up all the loneliness that I've been feeling all this time. Just a brief background about me, about two years ago I rarely open up to someone. Usually I don't let myself get hurt by anybody that I would be involved with. I always try to not love or like someone too much so he won't have the upper hand with my emotions. Well just this week, I let myself get hurt. I finally accepted the thought of having a special someone. I thought that was my problem before that's why I can't get someone. Anyway he ended up hurting me. I really thought we had something there but I was wrong. I really need to be cautious again and not let just anyone enter my life...
I also think that the relationship I tried to create with some of friends are falling apart. For one thing everyone's busy nowadays and they can’t seem to give time to their friends although I do appreciate
the effort of others. It's really been hard especially going back to my self-pity mode. Anyway at least its ok and at least I have a career path na. No boys for me muna, just sex and no emotions. It’s a sad life but at least none of this heartbreak bullshit! Bye for now peeps and I miss you all!
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 10:48 AM WST
Updated: Thursday, 6 December 2007 10:51 AM WST
maulan
Mood:
irritated
Topic: wala lang
nasira ang payong ko this morning at ayun swerte! basa ng ulan haha hirap gumising putek! no one could guess my code in kris kringle haha who would expect na ganun code ko. hanggang ngayon hinuhulaan pa nila kung sino yun. well, kapag hindi walang nakahula nun, sayang 1,000 pesos.
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 8:47 AM WST
Monito/Monita
Mood:
don't ask
Topic: wala lang
today is the first day of our monito/monita. the first item is something scented and useful. well i want to be more creative on this hmmm i rushed to the grocery store. found myself paying for a wash room freshener-albatross with free mini albatross lemon scent and napthalene balls. aren't they scented and very useful? haha well my monita is a female. hope she likes it. on friday, the second kris kringle item is something nasty but cute. i can't think of any...how i want to be extra creative so i bought a mini cd and burn few nasty songs haha then i added up a keychain to reach the desired amount. next week, third item na...hmmm ano naman kaya??? haha
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 2:40 PM WST
Updated: Wednesday, 5 December 2007 2:44 PM WST
What The?
Mood:
irritated
Topic: life kong weird
bakit ganun? why laging failed?
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 2:59 PM WST
great weekend
Mood:
a-ok
Damn I’m too busy today! Load of paperworks, recruitment and training…well most of my time is spent on preparing for our Christmas party. Tomorrow is boss’ birthday, hmm what shall be our gimik this time…Now with recruitment, I guess I’m lucky its raining referrals (hehe) or is it about my newly launched internal referral system. Dang! Kahit ano pa yan at least ok ang supply ko. On the brighter side of life hehe my weekend is so cool. Met up with bandmates, earn a little additional money for mom. Known new friends from that gig. I’ve known a few who influenced my life in an instant. Well, first is mark, the freak manager. I’ve known for like what, 3 weeks pa lang but I’m glad we get along well and he has lots of inspiring stories and pieces of advice. From him, I learned that being a bastard doesn’t lead me to building a bastard kingdom. It leads to failed relationships. I agree to that and that’s totally true. Next is JB’s girlfriend, Nica, who was a lesbian turned hottie. Well, she told me that even how decided a person can be, he or she can change her mind in an unexpected time. I rather not agree because everything happens for a reason and that reason is the basis for change. Magulo ba? Haha ako din naguguluhan na eh. Now last is pare, she is my female counterpart. Her family set-up is as complicated as mine. Everything seems to be just like the same. I’m glad that I’ve known her. Really. Even if she’s tetchy at times.
Posted by forgotten-vodka
at 11:17 AM WST
Updated: Thursday, 6 December 2007 10:51 AM WST
